Zombie totally doesn't count, she doesn't even remember that.
On a personal level, it would be a repeat of when Kenshin disappeared—knowing/not knowing, not being able to check, not even being able to go near because it hits her too hard. That horrible feeling of emptiness where someone she cared about used to be. Desperate faith that . . . some people come back, some do, and if there's any way he can he will.
And burying all of that enough to function and be okay for the people she needs to be okay for (but it's such a tenuous okay, so fragile). And going to see Cepheus, because for her he's dear but to them he's family, and . . .
And standing outside of their door, with all those past perceptions (outsider, traitor, monster) crowding tight about her, and breaking down a bit in front of their door because she can't even bring herself to knock. She doesn't even need to see them to know how they must feel, and she can't even be a support because Claude was the bridge between them and Claude's gone.
Claude's gone.
And she'd get up and go on, because there's no one who would forgive her if she gave up too.
How are things between him and his teammates these days? Just in brief.
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Date: 2011-12-09 11:44 am (UTC)On a personal level, it would be a repeat of when Kenshin disappeared—knowing/not knowing, not being able to check, not even being able to go near because it hits her too hard. That horrible feeling of emptiness where someone she cared about used to be. Desperate faith that . . . some people come back, some do, and if there's any way he can he will.
And burying all of that enough to function and be okay for the people she needs to be okay for (but it's such a tenuous okay, so fragile). And going to see Cepheus, because for her he's dear but to them he's family, and . . .
And standing outside of their door, with all those past perceptions (outsider, traitor, monster) crowding tight about her, and breaking down a bit in front of their door because she can't even bring herself to knock. She doesn't even need to see them to know how they must feel, and she can't even be a support because Claude was the bridge between them and Claude's gone.
Claude's gone.
And she'd get up and go on, because there's no one who would forgive her if she gave up too.
How are things between him and his teammates these days? Just in brief.